TRUTH AND BEAUTY

I don’t believe that the way my year starts sets the tone for the rest of the year, but so far, 2012 has been rather rough.

I have several friends who’ve had someone close to them die.  My last living grandparent, my Lolo, was administered into the hospital with painful gout on his legs, but they’ve also found a growth in his lungs.  At first, the doctors believed it was tuberculosis, but the tests came out negative.  The doctors then asked my grandfather if he wanted to undergo a biopsy; he said no because he’s too weak now to undergo even a minor operation.  At the moment, whatever the growth is in his lungs is unknown and he and the rest of my family are just playing a waiting game.

A few days ago, what was supposed to be a minor quibble with my dad ended up escalating once again into a major argument that ended with me officially face-to-face coming out to my dad.  For a few years, I’ve thought he’s known, what with him seeing an ex-boyfriend and I kiss inside my car and him having a conversation with a co-worker about me.  But, I’m guessing it’s different with a face-to-face confirmation.  The major argument also makes me believe that we have a very unhealthy way of communicating with each other.  That definitely needs to change.

That’s my 2012 so far.  It only gets better from here on out.